When I turn 46, I say "No more nonsense": Saigon 6-7.... Pain & Misery .... and then HE'S BACK..

5:30

OMG, I miss him so much.....but maybe last night's email will help to KILL contact with him. Not that I want that.....but as long as I am in contact with him, I will always hope.... I want to cry.

6:30

3 more days and hopefully I won't be in the same country as him anymore....

7:00

Nhat zaloed me a video.....my garden is GONE...

.. everything died yesterday ...my love didn't die...but that nice cuddly feeling that someone cares.... and 2 years of garden work.....

I am crying....and YES, I actually do send Phap an email.. "I miss you so much"...because I MISS that nice feeling of someone giving a shit about me...

8:30

I call the Canadian Consulate..... I get a computer system with options.... and no-one to talk to.... I leave my name, telephone number, and nature of my inquiry and I hope they will call me back.

10:30

The Canadian Consulate calls back..... again a Vietnamese woman.... and she is NICE and actually very helpful.... she will send me the info by email.

11:30

I've managed to call HCMC Family Medical Clinic (the Asian woman on the phone does NOT speak Vietnamese ;-).... she zaloes me the link for registration, I fill everything out, and I call back to get an appointment for tomorrow morning at 8:00.

nap

12:30

I should get some food.....

Fish & Chips....Solo this time :-(

Iwona calls... talking about Tin.... Tin has no empathy....I think she's right....

13:30

Back in the hotel room......

watch Lupin......

15:20

start walking..... check out where the clinic is.....

I make it in 30 minutes....the time Google predicted...not bad with a recently broken foot and diminished leg muscles.

Having a smoke on a garden retaining wall, a security guard actually walks up to me and tells me not to smoke..... poor Vietnam....

I take a taxi back....45k

16:05

back in the hotel....

Mathias emailed me? OMG.... with pictures.....

16:25

Working on a final Phap email.....OMG...it's breaking my heart..... as if it wasn't in splinters already....

17:00

I call Iwona ....she cheers me up....

17:45

I try calling The Monkey.... no answer...

18:00

I send that email to Phap....

Han không biết làm thế nào để sống nếu không có Phap....bởi vì đôi khi Pháp đã làm cho Han rất rất hạnh phúc...cam on .....

và Han đã hy vọng sẽ dành phần đời còn lại của tôi với Phap boi vi Hân yêu nước Pháp hơn bất cứ ai khác mà tôi đã yêu trong đời

Nhưng nếu thật sự Pháp không còn thích Han nữa thì Han phải chấp nhận thôi

Han chúc Phap một cuộc sống hạnh phúc .... và Han sẽ gửi email cho Phap khi Han trở lại Việt Nam

I talk to the Monkey

18:25

there is an email....

Where is Han?.. Phap is outside the hotel. No, Phap has always loved Han. And yesterday when the Phap drank a lot of wine, Someone used Phap's phone to text Han. Phap

WHAT THE FUCK?

I run downstairs and there he is.....

and everything is perfect again....

sleep

I sleep so well... at all times one of my hands or feet are touching his body

sleep

6:15

The alarm clock goes off

time to shit and shower and go get my PCR test.... Phap wants to sleep, which is fine

Walking is harder today than yesterday.... but I make it in time... a very busy place.... good thing I was a bit early..... the test is done outside.... I expect the LOOOONG thing to be stuck down my nose and throat.... but no....she uses a longish Q-tip to swipe my nostrils and my tongue.... and that's it....EASY !

more cuddles with Phap.....

he leaves at 9:15 after failing 2 times to get off....always makes me sad.....

a day of errands

I talk to Bobby for quite a while.... that old cynic is always cheering me up ....

around 12 I get hungry..... but I buy a belt first..... high tech thing, LOL.... then fish & chips

16:30

Iwona calls......she is a good friend and I will miss her.....

buy wine and cigs....

nap

talk to The Monkey.... Chau really cleaned out my house....

computer speakers, something in the bathroom (my Gaultier perfume), the sausages, wine..... what a greedy little fucker..... but watch out..... what goes around comes around....

watch Lupin (it's addictive)

and then it's 18:30 already

Time for the sushi restaurant..... but a change of food today....