4:45
I'm awake....my face is puffy.....GREAT, just what I needed.....
another doze.....and too much booze
7:30
I've done my calisthenics and completed the ArriveCan application.....
8:00
No Phap...... still no idea whether he will show up....and even if he does, maybe he'll just bring more bad news.....
shower..... I feel better..
8:30 ...but I keep drinking...because that bad feeling just won't go away.....
I send an email "Where is my only love?"
8;35
And email: Phap is on the way.....
OMFG....happy
8:45
Another bowel movement.....and I realize that I've soiled my undies WTF?....
nap
10:00
He should be here by now.....but he isn't....which was truth and which was a lie?......the man is driving me insane....
10:30
He REALLY should be here by now..... I'm preparing an email...... "My future will be happy because I am a courageous person. But you will bring unhappiness to yourself and to everyone around you. GOOD BYE."
10:45
I Zalo him "????"
No answer
I call him.....he says Benh Thanh..... I still don't believe him
11:00
When I bring out the garbage, he rolls up.......
What follows are the happiest 6 hours of my life....and he ain't unhappy either ;-)...... and I think I've finally managed to instill some hope into him
17:00
He leaves....
17:30
I call Tam in Phu Diem ....talk to her husband
I call Karl in Karlsruhe.... voicemail....
18:15
At the Parkhaus again.....I ordered a Zigeunerschnitzel.
I email Phap.....Thank you for making me the happiest person on the planet today....I hope you didn't get wet....
18:20
Tam called back....I call her and she answers.....she ask me "Do I have a wife?" ...Not spilling the beans, I say "I don't have a wife, but my lover has a wife"..."but he does not like his wife".... she asks 'Are you in VH or in Saigon"...I say "I'm in Saigon and you know WHY I am in Saigon"...... I don't mention any names....but she's a good person and I had to get it off my chest....maybe I should just keep my mouth shut......
19:05
back in my room....still digestive issues.....but I make it to the toilet in time
20:00
I so miss his head in my lap...my head on his shoulder.....his snoring....the intimacy.......
20:45
nap
1:30
a sip of wine.....
sleeep
7:00 I call EDA....I miss her so much....
doze
8:00
Time to get stuff done....
Another quick test..
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...NEGATIVE......
I check in online for tomorrow's ANA flight.... but I still have to get the boarding pass at the airport.....
I call Wemper Woman...... I simply have to tell someone how HAPPY and how SAD I am......
8:30
buy a tuna sandwich, some banana bread, more wine and another carton of cigarettes.... I might have to smuggle....
doze
10:00
Joanna/Seattle calls back..... she as a literary person understands the "heart of gold" and "Romeo & Juliet" references..... The Old and the Restless....
11:30
OMG....life is SO EASY in SaiGon..... Nicky...today with his hair sticking up like a bird...called me a Grab motorcycle..... I got my PCR test done.....took a taxi back......
12:00
my eyes are wet again......because I miss him so much....my heart overfloweth....and I'm afraid for him....I hope he learns quickly.....
nap
13:45
lost hours
horny, drunk, tired, tipsy
15:45
I should go eat something proper......
15:50
Nicky with his bird hair.... The Turkish guy with his baby.... the laundry woman with her baby.... people smile and wave at me on the 100 meter walk to the Bookworm's Restaurant.... I am HOME here....that's why tears keep welling up in my eyes when I think about tomorrow's departure.....
16:00
what is that touch on my leg?.....the restaurant dog came over to nuzzle for its pets... ;-)
In the news.....today I get a PCR test without even having to register....walk in and about 4 minutes wait time.....in the third world.... I read the news.... and PCR tests are still not properly available in Canada
WHAT the FUCK !?!
16:05
Phap wrote.....Today how is Han....?
typical....but I don't hold back
Today, Han is sad because he has to leave his lover's country....and misses Phap very much.
But Han is also happy knowing that Han will come back and we will be happy again
I love you very much
Be brave and don't be afraid
But before I can send it, one drop of lemon juice fucks up my touchpad...... Good thing I brought the wireless mouse..... ! But I have to get back to the room first for that.....
then my internet dies..... ...no ...it's probably just another one of those Windows updates..... and my touchpad comes back to life....
nap
18:30
NO REPLY....and my spirits DROP.....
I email him....."I want to see your face before I leave....videocall or send me a picture of you?"
19:10
I call the testing centre..... "I did the PCR test this morning and was told I would have the results at 19:00.... I do not have them.....they say they are just finishing and will send it in a few minutes...."
I truly LOVE this country....but I also hate its deficiencies.... maybe I still have to work on erasing the German inside myself....
19:20
I videocall Him....He doesn't answer........
19:25
I email him
"I am sorry that I making your life complicated
19:30
I'm getting old.... don't have time for Bullshit anymore !
19:45
I video call Iwona....she's at the hairdresser.... she'll call me back
19:55
I've deleted ALL of Phap's emails....and all his pictures....FUCK THIS SHIT !
20;00
I am SO CLOSE sending another DMM email......
20:05
He video calls me.....
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I am happy again..
20:15
an email from him: "Dung buon"..... .....I'm not sure that's enough.....
20:30
try to have a short nap.....pack later
doze.....
the alarm is set for 3:00
good enough....
22:00
an email...... "I miss you"
I reply "I miss you too... it is like a constant belly ache....do not be afraid.... Karma will help..."
